I literally am just trying to figure out how I’m going to keep making enough money to survive. I’ve been going through an insane level of instability over the past year. I’ve managed to get my mental state to a much less helpless place than it was a few months ago, but in terms of actual stability? I don’t even know what my life would be looking like in a few months if this wasn’t happening.
I have no fucking clue how I’m meant to be doing anything more than keeping my head above water. I’ve been sounding the alarm about this shit for years. I’ve been trying to get people aware and motivated, and I’ve had some success. But right now? I’m just trying to keep myself safe and I’m not sure how to do that.
I’ve been the person who resists the bystander effect so many times in my life. I’m the person who breaks up fights at parties. I’m the person who steps up and says something when they see something fucked up. I’m the person who’s stuck my neck out to stand up for the right thing even when it made me a pariah. But I don’t know how to do that now. And honestly, reading vague lists isn’t really giving me any further ideas.
The best I know how to do is not get completely overwhelmed by hearing the kind of rhetoric I’m hearing about myself and people like me from our government and from the people who’ve propped them up. Literally just figuring out how to do something as simple as get out of bed when I’ve got a neighbor who suddenly feels bold enough to throw transphobia right in my face in a world where I don’t even feel like I can safely apply for a passport.
I’m literally just trying to keep my finances straightened out and keep some kind of hope alive. I can’t be the person to fix this. I wish I could. Some days it feels like I have a target painted on my back just leaving the house, and I live in a pretty safe area of a pretty safe state. I worry about my friends who don’t. I worry that I don’t have the resources to do much of anything to help them other than talk to them and be there for them. I know that’s not nothing, but compared to all the shit going on it kind of feels like it is.
I don’t know who to point at and say “hey, I need help”, let alone who to point at and say “hey, this other person needs help”.
I’m really sorry that you’re feeling overwhelmed! The last time cheetolini was in office was bad and this time is already worse. The easiest thing you can do right now is to take a deep breath and try meditation if you haven’t. There might be some mutual aid groups nearby. That’s where you should go if you need help. If you’re trans, visiting with your local trans support group could be really helpful. You’re welcome to message me too if you want.
I literally am just trying to figure out how I’m going to keep making enough money to survive. I’ve been going through an insane level of instability over the past year. I’ve managed to get my mental state to a much less helpless place than it was a few months ago, but in terms of actual stability? I don’t even know what my life would be looking like in a few months if this wasn’t happening.
I have no fucking clue how I’m meant to be doing anything more than keeping my head above water. I’ve been sounding the alarm about this shit for years. I’ve been trying to get people aware and motivated, and I’ve had some success. But right now? I’m just trying to keep myself safe and I’m not sure how to do that.
I’ve been the person who resists the bystander effect so many times in my life. I’m the person who breaks up fights at parties. I’m the person who steps up and says something when they see something fucked up. I’m the person who’s stuck my neck out to stand up for the right thing even when it made me a pariah. But I don’t know how to do that now. And honestly, reading vague lists isn’t really giving me any further ideas.
The best I know how to do is not get completely overwhelmed by hearing the kind of rhetoric I’m hearing about myself and people like me from our government and from the people who’ve propped them up. Literally just figuring out how to do something as simple as get out of bed when I’ve got a neighbor who suddenly feels bold enough to throw transphobia right in my face in a world where I don’t even feel like I can safely apply for a passport.
I’m literally just trying to keep my finances straightened out and keep some kind of hope alive. I can’t be the person to fix this. I wish I could. Some days it feels like I have a target painted on my back just leaving the house, and I live in a pretty safe area of a pretty safe state. I worry about my friends who don’t. I worry that I don’t have the resources to do much of anything to help them other than talk to them and be there for them. I know that’s not nothing, but compared to all the shit going on it kind of feels like it is.
I don’t know who to point at and say “hey, I need help”, let alone who to point at and say “hey, this other person needs help”.
Also, pride and joy are their own forms of resistance. There’s no time like the present to get even weirder in MAGA eyes.
I’m really sorry that you’re feeling overwhelmed! The last time cheetolini was in office was bad and this time is already worse. The easiest thing you can do right now is to take a deep breath and try meditation if you haven’t. There might be some mutual aid groups nearby. That’s where you should go if you need help. If you’re trans, visiting with your local trans support group could be really helpful. You’re welcome to message me too if you want.