In the end this ramble will be pretty meaningless until I actually manage to have any actual relationship, cuz its kinda dumb to talk about it never being in one (well technically there was one week long disaster, but that’s not a story for today). Ive got disorders and am well aware of my perception of reality being distorted, which doesn’t mean I actually can recognize these distortions. For some reason, whether those distortions or experience, I consider gay peoples very cool and interesting and it would kinda feel nice to be one of those? I think? Idk, am histrionic, Ive had a history of jokingly flirting with all irl friends regardless of gender, but I did it more for the sport of it than to make it into something serious (don’t do it anymore, realized it was too easy for me to overstep boundaries). Sometimes I get a like on a dating app from a man I would consider really fucking good lookin’, but like, why do they send me a like to never ever respond? I hate dating apps. So yeah, I just wanted to ramble a bit, please yell at me if you mind
Just going to say others have covered that it isn’t a cop out.
I’ll mention that I’m into women of many varieties. I’m also into men who like presenting fem, and I also realized later on I also am into fit men. A lot. I’m definitely more picky with men than I am with women, as of now, but the variety of who I see as attractive has grown since accepting I was bisexual. Personal experience, not meant to imply thats how it will be for you, just saying you can give yourself the room to find what fits best for you, and you’ll be better off for it.
And its still not a cop out.