I can only recommens to get into hobbies like building dioramas, electorincs, music (there are daws like bitwig or ableton with free trials, its on the PC as well though), Start some sport, i like bouldering because you basically sit around all the time and then climb some routes and talk with friends. Or be creative with cooking! The only thing is to just start doing something new. Its always fun!

To be honest there are 4 things that combine in a bad way. Sorry if that is too forward, I don’t know you and its just what I’ve read here. So dont take it the wrong way.

• you seem to have very high expectations of yourself, which is great but you burn out quck that way. You seem to not want to give up and fail
• you seem to be stuck in your day to day rhythm
• you seem kind of burned out or depressed
• you seem to have a lack of input, variation and aktually kind of life

Try to break your day to day cycle and be kind to yourself :)

I recently ready about the atomic bombs again, so the us has quite the history of being a silly goose. The bad part about it, the us does not seem to learn from their mistakes and show remorse, but rather not talk about it and brainwash the west with patriotism

puh, there is a lot in there. anything i should look out for?

no, not really. i have one but linux does not rely on it… :/ thanks though :)

i thought about that, because i dont. but on the other hand i dont want to be confused later on when i want to use zfs and it does not work

Absolute legend