Two thoughts on this:

1. There are probably way more men out there than you think that feel very similar, but are ashamed to be open about this, especially towards male peers, and therefore build a facade of manly manliness that doesn’t reflect their actual personality.

2. There are probably way more women out there than you think that like exactly this personality. Dude, a lot of women like women. Women are usually not very manly. So if there are enough women liking women, there are enough women liking dudes like you. Don’t worry. Lots of women aren’t attracted to macho-type guys at all.

“Analrinne” ist wirklich ein furchtbares Wort.

No. The body can only absorb a certain amount at a time. Do what your doctor said.

Recommendations would probably depend a lot on what kind of books you like.

One I read recently and loved is “Extremely loud and incredibly close” by Jonathan Safran Foer.

I can’t really go anywhere as I need to save as much money as I can to cover for missed time at work.

By far the most American thing I’ve read in a while.

Answering the question: How about reading some books?

Get well soon, OP!

Horrible. Think of all the people that could have reached their destination 17 seconds earlier than they can now.