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  • Oh my god crawl out of your own ass. You don’t know me or what I’ve been through, and your assertion that someone could only say this sort of thing if they never experienced that kind of trauma is asinine and insulting.

    This isn’t elitism, or any other label you’ve got up your sleeve to make it easy to dismiss because you don’t agree with it.

    It’s excruciatingly won life experience. I’m not going to apologize for calling what you’ve described what it is.

    Yes, people are not compartmentalized automatons. But it’s just as ridiculous to argue that people are complete slaves to their emotions to the point of violence, or that it’s OK that they are.

    Actual well adjusted adults are, in general, able to control their response to their own emotions. If they aren’t able to do that to the extreme degree of the examples you used, that is emotional disregulation. That’s literally the term for it.

    As I said before, if you find yourself surrounded by people who can’t, do whatever you can to keep yourself safe and get out as soon as you can. If it’s family, limit your exposure or go no contact.

    I know that sucks to hear when you’re stuck in the unsafe situation, or when you have to rely on those people financially or otherwise. But for your own safety you need to make an exit plan that you can work towards.

    There are plenty of people out there who won’t go out beating people or murdering after a bad day, or even after a bad couple of years. You don’t have to live in a situation with people who do/would, despite how hard it may be to get out.

    For fucks sake, in the past few days I called out someone for making a suggestion to someone living in an unsafe situation that seemed kind on the surface but would put them in more danger. Something I know from personal experience.

    I wouldn’t be here if I hadn’t got out. At best I would have only killed myself.

    I ran from a dangerous situation living with my parents, eight hours away to what I thought was a safe new start and a path forward for my life. I had to move back in with my dangerous situation parents because the person I thought I had my new start with was stealing from what was supposed to be my new support network, and they couldn’t take the risk that I was part of the thefts. I wasn’t. I watched my plans for my life crumble instantly while I had to go back to where I tried to escape. Relationship I built over a quarter of my life, trashed. My safe place, my advocate, had been a liar and a thief from the start and I was too blind to see it.

    And before you try to squirm around more with shit like “clearly you haven’t interacted with the public in a long time or worked retail” or some shit like that: I worked a total of 8 years between retail and tech support.




  • That’s all clear examples of emotional disregulation.

    You’re not wrong that you can’t help what you feel, but everyone has an amount of control and responsibility for how they react to their own feelings, and is ultimately responsible for their own actions regardless of the strength of their emotions.

    If you live in an environment where people regularly excuse shitty, violent, or abusive behavior by using their emotions as an excuse for it, please understand that is not healthy behavior.



  • When the hell did they start updating the site database to include downloads of externally hosted patches?

    That effectively means the site is back!

    Why the fuck wasn’t that posted about fucking anywhere?

    All I can find is articles about the site going read only except for the forum and news posts back in August 2024. I used to check the site weekly, but stopped in September after none of the community made continuation projects seemed to be taking off.




  • That’s really hard to say. Comparing 1925 to now is crazy.

    I think embedded tech would be in just about everything, and we’d probably have implantable tech as well. With that, I’d imagine that virtual reality would be nearly indistinguishable from the real thing.

    If we’re sticking to the positive, that would be amazing to effectively make distance meaningless for most aspects of relationships and interaction. Would absolutely change life as we know it.




  • More from my college years, but an ex made off with more than half of my video game collection right before scalpers/speculators started driving prices through the roof. Most of my GameBoy games. My favorite GameCube games. All of my Genesis, GameGear, Xbox360, and N64 games plus each of those consoles. Including multiple complete in box games. The argument was that she found and bought some of what she kept, but it was always bought using my fucking money. She didn’t have a job past our first year together. Really had me swindled. Don’t mingle finances until you’re married folks.

    From childhood? A whole bunch of LEGO sets that are either out of print now or are still stupid expensive. Hard to justify $50+ on LEGO.



  • This is why I keep insisting that Kodi (and other open source “media center” solutions) really only work for people dedicatedly ripping their own large collection of physical content, or for pirates.

    I would kill for an all in one, “single pane of glass” way to browse and watch even just only my legally obtained media library (personally ripped discs amd multiple streaming services). But at absolute best I still have content from different sources all squirelled away in their own separate menus, and if I use something like Kodi for the rips I’m stuck at 720p for streaming (assuming the unofficial plugin for Netflix decides to work that day).

    And not even proprietary closed source stuff gets it right. With a chromecast dongle (or whatever they’ve relabeled it now) at best I can search for a specific piece of content from the main menu, and then it’s a crapshoot if say, the Amazon Prime content found by the search is included with my sub or a separate cost. It’s a crapshoot if the “link” will just open the associated app or actually take me to the fucking content in the associated app.

    I don’t get why these streaming services think people care about the brand at all. The less I have to think about the service itself, the more likely I am to ignore how infrequently I use it. The more I have to deal with friction getting to the content, the more I have time to think about if the subscription is even worth the cost.


  • I really reccomend you just follow the Viva New Vegas guide I linked. If you only follow it through the first few pages and stop before the “VNV Extended” section begins, there’s no gameplay tweaks, only bug and crash fixes. The only texture mods in that section of the guide are for landscape textures (mainly distant landscape textures) to reduce visible repetition.

    It’s the most up to date guide I’ve found concerning crash fixes, performance fixes, and general stability fixes. There’s a bunch of old “fixes” that actually cause more problems on modern systems, and you don’t need to worry about sorting through any of that yourself if you follow the guide.



  • For anyone considering playing or replaying New Vegas, I cannot reccomend the Viva New Vegas modlist enough.

    It’s unfortunately not just some “one click setup”. There is a Wabbajack installer, but there are some small steps you still need to do manually too.

    That said, it is by far the best and most comprehensive “vanilla plus” modpack I have ever used. I’m a modding addict; I don’t say that lightly. It doesn’t change core game mechanics, story, or anything the makes New Vegas what it is.

    It polishes what’s there, upgrading visuals in a consistent manner that blends perfectly with the original content. It fixes countless longstanding bugs, performance issues, and crashes (only two crashes in ~40 hours on a setup that was modded even further past what the pack includes).

    It polishes New Vegas to what it should have been on release (if Bethesda didn’t force Obsidian to rush it out the door early), then brings it as close to the quality of a modern release as possible through modding.


    If you want to replay Fallout 3, a lot of people prefer playing it in the New Vegas engine using the Tale of Two Wastelands mod. The version of Viva New Vegas that covers that and includes mods for the Fallout 3 content is “The Best of Times”.

    It appears to be up to the same quality as VNV standalone, but I haven’t used it myself yet.


  • Depends on my relationship to the person, how comfortable I feel with them knowing, and if it’s in any way relevant to any conversation/goings on. If it’s not contextually relevant, I’m not going to bring it up out of nowhere.

    And it would probably change significantly if I had different “conditions” than what I do have. Stuff with more negative connotations? I’d probably be more tight lipped.

    I have ADHD, am medicated for (but not formally diagnosed with) anxiety and depression, and a retired autism spectrum diagnostician that I lived with for a few months was certain I fell somewhere on the spectrum.

    I’m comfortable saying this shit online because I don’t know you, and my real identity isn’t tied to this online one. It’s relevant to this conversation too.


    IRL:

    I’m not shy about the ADHD, except in professional situations. Thay said, my boss and a handful of my coworkers know of it, because at least in my workplace and team there isn’t a stigma around it. I also work in tech, and I can pretty much guarantee that the majority of the team I’m on has some form of neurodivergence. I’m also medicated, with my symptoms fairly controlled, so it’s more used as a deprecating joke about why I document the ever living shit out of everything: “If I don’t write this down, I won’t remember this when I get back from lunch. One sec. Good ol ADHD brain.” My team members also know that I’m not the type to just joke about shit like that. Not someone who goes “lol, I’m so ADHD!”

    Beyond that, friends and family know about the depression. Mostly because they were around when it was at the worst, or as I was getting myself back together, but it’s not like I’m ashamed of it or anything. Again, I’m medicated and symptoms are largely under control. If I’m talking about the time in my life that it flared up, I don’t mince words. “Yeah, I went through some years of pretty intense depression. I feel like I had legitimate reasons to feel some of what I did, but I’m glad to be out from it.” Not something I share in the workplace.

    My parents and wife know of the anxiety. The anxiety probably shows without me broadcasting it (when it would be relevant). So I don’t talk about that one.

    My wife is the only one who knows the potential spectrum-ness, and whatever spectrum-ness I have is relatively minor. Don’t really have reason to bring it up. So it doesn’t leave the two of us.


    I guess my thinking is this:

    I’m not asking other people to bear the burden of working around my idiosyncracies. I do my best to handle them as my own problems to work through. Occasionally with the help of a close friend that is willing/able to help, but normally just my wife if I absolutely need someone else helping or as a sounding board.

    Most of my symptoms are tamped down to a point that I’m just odd, not a problem to be handled or worked around. I’m not ashamed of who I am, and I know who I am. But it’s also not really anyone else’s business but my own. I’ll share if it’s relevant because I’m not ashamed, but I’m not vomiting about my personal brand of weird to people I’ve just met.

    The one person who has to deal with the rare instances of “my idiosyncracies are now a problem” is aware of things fully. That’s my wife. And I do what I can day after day to reduce those occasions from ever happening. Slow, constant movement towards better control and understanding of myself. Step by sometimes slow as hell fucking step.