how is it 7.30, I thought it was nearly 9
so tired, woke up at 1.30 with stabbing migraine
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Two years ago, I went to see a psychiatrist for an ADHD assessment. Did some questionnaires, as did my mum, and after a half an hour telehealth consultation, I was told I have ADHD. The report I was given by this psychiatrist was riddled with spelling and grammar mistakes, and claimed things like I have binge eating disorder and insomnia, when I don’t have either of those things. The directions for medications were vague, and the GP I went to had trouble following what was written. This GP isn’t thorough himself, writing me a mental health care plan with also lots of mistakes, and one that said I was going to see a psychologist because of three types of insomnia that you can’t have all at once. But to avoid paying $60 out of pocket to see the more thorough GP up the road, I didn’t really have a choice. Besides, that GP said, “Really?!! We would’ve picked that up when you were younger,” when I said I thought I had ADHD.
So today, the GP asked me if I really needed medication. I tell him that’s his job to determine, but I have always struggled to stay afloat doing pretty much anything, and it’s made my life hell. He then asked me if I wanted to try a different medication, so he can change the permit to allow him to prescribe it. I told him I didn’t want to try a long-acting medication again, because I couldn’t sleep. He then tells me that he can’t change the permit to let me have something else, and the report is shit, and I should see a psychiatrist again.
$900 out of pocket to see the first psychiatrist, probably a couple of hundred to try medication for depression and ADHD, lots of learned helplessness and valuable time lost… and now even more money down the drain. The price gouging is insane, exploiting people who are struggling and in need of answers. I’ve also heard of people who got a diagnosis, and somehow they’ve missed bipolar disorder when taking their hx, and oop, they’ve ended up with stimulant-induced psychosis.
I went to the optometrist last year, who said I have a focusing problem with my eyes. Maybe that’s what it’s been this whole time.
It just makes me wonder if I should even bother trying meds, or if I should just give up. But I cannot keep maintaining the status quo, or I will be giving up on life.
Hopefully you can get a second opinion from a different psychiatrist. I have heard stories before of people having additional conditions to adhd, which get missed because adhd symptoms can overlap with other things. If the medication is causing your life quality to be lower than without it, this sounds like it’s definitely the wrong stuff and needs a review. Taking it should be helpful, not make things worse.
I feel for you. Hearing what people I know pay for psych appointment is horrendous.
That’s such fucking bullshit, and sadly a story I’ve heard before.
Do you ever come across an object and think “I wonder what that’s from”? So you keep it thus occupying both physical space and brain space because you know if you do toss it you’ll work out what it’s for a week later once the big bins have been emptied. Yeah I hate that.
As someone with ADHD I direct your question to my partner
Absolutely. I’m looking at one right now lol
Wires mostly. I have stuff going back to the old vga cables.
Sometimes I can’t work out if it’s a micro usb or one of those weird proprietary cables with fits into almost nothing.
All. the. time .
Ahh, companies. All ‘fuck you, peasant, eat my arse’ until you cancel your account and post on product review then it’s all ‘we’re sorrryyy how can we fix this??’
Pity PR won’t let me actually reply with ‘eat my arse’
😂 Sometimes I think I just wait for your comments to brighten my day.
don’t do that, I’m a horrible misanthrope
Ahahaha, well it takes one to know one. 👋🏻
awesome, come sit at an ignorable distance from me and we’ll despise together
With a raised eyebrow and a ‘can you believe this shit’ glance when appropriate!
For anyone that maybe interested:
More Laneway Festival tickets are going on sale at 10am tomorrow. Link
Regardless of the music it’s a fun day out with lots of food and 🍻, it’s also on Valentines day!
Perfect night to cuddle up with fluffy and a book.
Nice view out there as well
Goodnight all ❤️
Beautiful.
Goodnight. 😘
So nice!
sky pretty
I’m going to wait 2 weeks before approaching my manager again about the outcome of the raise discussions.
Have kept applying and have a couple more interviews next week.
Will have to be working outside office hours anyway, and the raise would make it worthwhile, but we’ll see.
Fingers crossed.
Will it be worth it if you got the raise?
From the impression I got it felt like they were overloading you with clients and work.
There’s got to be a point where you have to tell them that you’ve been given too much work or too many clients to deal with?
Honestly, I don’t know. The raise would be life changing. I could actually buy a house a lot sooner.
I am overloaded. And I will need to work outside office hours. But everything has a cost. Depends what we want to sacrifice to achieve our goals.
In the least, it will give me an incredible ability to handle large amounts of work which I can take with me to another place.
Life has so many tough decisions.
Lets hope you get a raise to make it worth it or a job that’s just better overall
No cheesemares to report, but evidently, I need to stop playing Slime Legion on my phone because I was definitely sliding little monsters in my dreams.
Now to just the nightmare of my work day.
Beep Beep 🚚
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Thank you chef
May I please have some cheese? And some popcorn? And some popcorn with the weird but nice fake cheese powder? Thank youuuuu Bacon!
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Aw yisss, thank you!
As I am banned from eating it atm, could I have all the things with gluten, please chef
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Chef, do you offer an intravenous coffee service? If so, please sign me up.
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Just realised I’m crushing hard on a regular hookup guy at the moment. It’ll sting when things inevitably change and we can’t meet anymore. But accepting the happy chemicals and swooning a little in the meantime. 🫠🥲
That’s very cute!
I miss having a crush, but at the same time, it’s oddly peaceful not having one.
How good is this weather? I’ll be school shoe shopping today with the kid where she’ll complain that they’re all ugly and it’s hard to choose between ugly and ugly.
Feels weird to suddenly having a day like this.
I was about to go out for a little for some fresh air but I don’t think I will anymore.
Go. We’ve only got 2 or 3 days before the heat returns so go outside now.
I know I’m going out tomorrow so that’s ok too.
Argh. I really aimed to wake up early today but I only made it as early as 10:30 today.
That’s good.
neighbour chose today to use a jackhammer , I think I’ll go out soon
Good idea.
cranking open every door and window and embracing the lack of moist
I needed a break from the heat, same as the fluffy ones amongst us lol
Bliss for the next couple of days!
One of my housemates left the back door open overnight, which usually annoys me, but damn it’s a nice morning
A happy accident.
dives in
Edit: Something has been destroying my seedlings past the size the snails usually go for them.
All the marigolds and some of the sunflowers in the dust bowl got stripped to sticks or straight up eaten. I traitorously wondered if the bird bros did it.
Then very early yesterday morning something got one of the pumpkin seedlings. I wondered, possum or cat? I put a protective milk crate over the spare I replanted in its place.
But then I found the moment on the camera and while I can’t see what the animal was I saw the seedling bend and dip as if something pulled it down. It could have bent under the weight of a very big snail crawling up the stem but it doesn’t look like snail damage. It was stripped too thoroughly and quickly, yanked down too fast.
Honestly I’m thinking rats.
I’ve got a wire basket over the lettuce seedlings because the birds’ll dig them up.
Sounds like dem mousies all right.
little buggers
cover seedlings with a cut down inverted plastic bottle
Yeah good idea. The 2l bottles might be a bit small but if I gently fold the leaves upwards and in it might protect them until the next growth spurt
Edit:
The largest boi looked like a baby being x-rayed.
He has been allowed to shelter under the milk crate. The rest have been ensconced under drink bottle domes.
I see a cherry tomato blushing so I need to see about buying some bird net. That special kind that doesn’t tangle wildlife, it’s been legislated or something
I’ve been clearing out the shed and saw a rat in the backyard yesterday. Gawd I hope they don’t come in the house, particularly as we are sans cat now
update: Oh look, suddenly they have some new reviews lavishing adoration on their customer service after I explicitly mentioned how crap it was.
geralt hmm
(I wasn’t dwelling, they replied to me with a simpering wank and I wasn’t having it so I blasted them again)
Wow. I joke and act chill but lately both my anxiety and sleep have been absolutely unmanageable. -_-
Plus I have to get this grumpy tooth checked out again.
I think it might be time to take a quarter of an otc sleeping pill between midnight and 2 to try and get at least a few hours of sleep at an appropriate time. (Taking any more than that is a roulette of it either completely not working or making me so groggy I sleep right through the next day.)
so many hugs, this weather hasn’t helped, it’s made the whole city grumpy too