please dont be too personal to yourself
but mine is that i began to dislike big tech and corporate social media
My desire to understand what happened during my upbringing in a heavily religious envrionment.
It engaged me for a desire to understand, not just science, but people, anything was an escape from this dogma.
I’m really enjoying the science side.
But I realise I have major untreated Trauma and I’m scared of dealing with it. It’s my “Elephant in the room”.
But I thrive off it, it’s like an energy core within me, like this ANTICORE.
Great introspective question causing me to reflect, but an answer I’ll respectfully reserve for myself.
Wow that’s mature of you.
Big hugs
Disliking big tech and corporate social media isn’t a personality… that’s not you. That’s just shit you don’t like. There are tons of people that are nothing like you that dislike the same shit.
A healthy combination of stubborn tenacity and pathetic laziness really.
Shit
ADHD dictates so much of my persobality
We are all made of stardust.
"We are a way for the universe to know itself "
42 years of (previously) undiagnosed autism and ADHD
Abuse
Lol, here’s me spending 15 mins composing myself and you just straight up said it.
Props to you stringere.
This is what I said:
"My desire to understand what happened during my upbringing in a heavily religious envrionment.
It engaged me for a desire to understand, not just science, but people, anything was an escape from this dogma.
I’m really enjoying the science side.
But I realise I have major untreated Trauma and I’m scared of dealing with it. It’s my “Elephant in the room”.
But I thrive off it, it’s like an energy core within me, like this ANTICORE."
You said it a lot more eloquently and provided more context, though, and I appreciate that.
My upbringing and events that happened during childhood really led me to a parh of compassion and gave me a drive for self reflection amd betterment. Seeing ignorance and blind faith cause so much pain and suffering really made me want to make things better in the world. I hope I’ve done so in my little corner of it.
Insatiable curiosity about everything and a keen awareness of my limited lifespan.
Which begs the question.
Will you ever be satisfied with the knowledge you have?
Have to keep current, our understanding of old things advances and new things constantly emerge.
So, a churn of understanding?
How could I ever? I consume knowledge like a vacuum cleaner. The knowledge I have can only ever be a pale imitation of the knowledge I could have.
I’m noticing most knowledge is ephemeral.
What is true knowledge to you that lasts the test of time.
Math mostly. The more you learn about more things, the more familiar patterns become. Similar kinds of relationships govern all sorts of unrelated systems.
Autism & being lonely
I like trains, where r u?
Most of the choices I’ve made in life have been in reaction to what I don’t want, rather than what I do want.
I don’t want to burn myself out in high school, so I stop taking dual-credit classes my senior year. Then, I don’t want to take on student loan debt, so I forget about college entirely. Trade school, it is. But thanks to some physical handicaps, I don’t have the body for most blue-collar work. But I can drive a truck. And after bouncing around from one trucking company to another, I learn I don’t like hauling reefers or flatbeds. I don’t like being “over the road”, living in a truck full-time. But I don’t care for “local” trucking either, not with how far I have to commute into the big city.
That’s just one path, one example. I’ve got others.
Sometimes it’s hard, figuring out the things in life I do want, beyond short-term crap, like what toppings I want on my pizza. I like writing. I love driving, in nearly all its forms, especially racing. I’ve always got music playing, the cab of my truck doubles as a karaoke booth. The coworker who watches my dashcam videos says I’m not a bad singer. Whether I do anything with this other information, it’s anyone’s guess.
Determination to be a better parent than my parents forced me to process a lot, started an arc returning to my true self.
Well done my friend.
It was the violence and covering up the violence.
All these shams.
Made me a better person.
Thanks, you as well.
You are not alone my friend.
Severe ADHD, undiagnosed until age 30.
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I wouldn’t choose to describe my personality as revolving around liking or disliking anything specific. Things change.
It’s more relevant to use adjectives for values. I got this as an assignment some years ago where I found my words to be “brave” and “curious”.
So, instead of using your hate for big tech as your whole personality, you should consider what values you have that creates your current position on that subject.
People can hate big tech for different reasons, like the “we are not the same”-meme always points out.
You dislike big tech because you’re a young alternative free thinker, I dislike big tech because I’m a stubborn old idiot, we’re not the same.
The abuse, neglect i got from my immature parents, and the exclusion from social life due to my neurodivergence.
Hate and spite if used right is a great source of “motivation”
