I was drinking matcha everyday for the past few years until I started getting the jitters. I have switched to hojicha and am still getting jittery. Last week, I had nothing at all and had anxiety at a moderate baseline, but not the constant chest tightness, tingling hands, heart racing and brain fog. So I guess it’s just water and herbal tea for me for now. Hopefully any future ADHD meds don’t make me feel like this.

Can’t sleep gang checking in.

I’m such an idiot. I tidied my desk and took out all my study stuff to start work. BIL sees and makes semi neg noises which triggered me . 😭 I know he’s a dick.

I will put everything away and only take it out when I have privacy

I have a couple of hours to kill before the gym. Might make soup

ugh I am so hot today. wtf

I finished watching Private Lives/Bohema. It was like watching 6 movies about the same people over the span of 2 decades.

It was just sad, or I should say I was saddened. I might be too old to watch this. Like being too old to read Russian novels, you need to be young and fresh and not worn down to be resilient enough to withstand the nihilism.

And I just don’t understand life sometimes.

4 hobbits

Mmmmm sleepy

Bit of a wild swim in that wind. Very choppy waves hitting the beach at 45 degrees (usually they’re parallel). Ended up 80m down the beach in a few mins from where my kit was. Certainly wasn’t a south easterly as per BoM but nth. easterly.

So no wave tonight just sand in the wind:

I have gymed.

There will be soup and dumplings later, but for now I must pack my work bag

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Trying a shampoo from Aldi. It doesn’t have dimethicone (I get greasy hair) but it does have fragrance and polyquaternium which are asthma triggers. I used it just now and will see if the scent dissipates before bed. Weirdly it stings a little.

Edit: Oh. Apparently polyquaternium is a known irritant and releases formaldehyde. Back to the Loch with you Nessie.

Edit 2: That’s polyquaternium 17. Seems 10 and 7 are ‘safe’ but with the fragrance of the shampoo and the slight burn/itch of my scalp I’m not really sold.

Debating whether to wash it out with Dove bar.

I don’t know what it is but the chocolate on the back of chocolate coated Scotch Fingers is much better than it has any right to be. It almost had that Cadbury taste to it, there’s something different about it than normal biscuit chocolate

Hans Zimmer tix go on sale soon for anyone interested Rod Laver

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Today is a shut down and try again tomorrow day. Was not productive at all, too sleepy.

Bleeeeeurgh. Mega ceebtown here today. Just switch my brain off now and let me try tomorrow